Here's what I've learned this week!

The weight loss is not going as I would like, but I am determined to stick to my goals. I have been working hard at asking for support, and I'm not putting any false notions out there that "I've got this" because I don't. I know I've done it before and that leads me to believe I can do it again. Tiffanie is always there for me to lean on and I really appreciate that. Yesterday I emailed a friend that I admire, Becky has done amazing things with her life (you should check out her blog), she quickly replied and reminded me that this IS HARD! I broke down, which was so therapeutic. I have been trying to hold it all together and act like I can do all this, when the reality is that I can't do it all, all of the time. Sometimes I need help. That is a huge lesson for me. I am so grateful for my loving Heavenly Father that helps me through all of my struggles. I am grateful that to Him they are just as big a deal as they are to me.

I have been reading Daughters in My Kingdom. I just want to share a little something that I really enjoyed and could relate to. This is a quote from the daughter of Louise Y. Robison 7th Relief Society General President.

“When Mother went to President Grant’s office to be set apart, she felt sure he had been misinformed about her abilities, so she told him she’d be happy to do her best in whatever he asked her to do, but she wanted him to know that she had a limited education, and very little money and social position, and she was afraid she wouldn’t be the example that the women of the Relief Society would expect in a leader. She finished by saying ‘I’m just a humble woman!’ President Grant answered, ‘Sister Louizy, 85% of the women of our Church are humble women. We are calling you to be the leader of them."

I think she is awesome! I have loved reading this book, it is really giving me a love for Relief Society. It is an interesting calling to be Relief Society president, it is the most frightening calling I have ever had, but I also love it! The love that I feel for the sisters in my ward is overwhelming and I know that is because God loves them sooooooo much!

I have something to declare!

But I'm scared! Since I haven't blogged for over a year, no one will be looking here, so I feel safe, mostly.

First, mothers need to wake up to what is going on in this country and care about what is being taught to their children. I am not against public school, I am against people pawning off their God given right to educate their children. Public school is flawed, but parents should have a greater influence on what is taught to their children. One great way to increase their influence is to take what is taught at home and add their family values to those teachings. Just be aware, that's all.

Second, its time for me to step up and admit that I am seriously overweight. Obese even. My life has felt very out of my control. I have gained 50 pounds in the last year. I feel like I have been in survival mode. Now, a year later the house is still standing and my family is still here. Its time to take my health seriously. That is how I want to think of it, health, not weight not a number. Healthy living.

Third, I LOVED GENERAL CONFERENCE! I got more inspiration out of Conference this past weekend than I think I have ever in my life! I feel I was given inspiration about what my daily study should be. I am calling it my Daily Devotion; here it is:

1/2 hour scriptures
1/2 hour Daughters in My Kingdom
1/2 hour news
1/2 hour Making of America
1/2 hour exercise

Here goes the next chapter of my life. Fabulous by Forty!